1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at? well, since i usually look in the mirror to fix myself, whatever needs fixing?

2. How much cash do you have on you? oh God maybe two dollars?

3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST": mest?  i dunno..they are a good band though

4. Favorite planet? the one we're on

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone? christy.. my lovely roommate<3

6. What is your main ring tone on your phone? now it's jack johnson flake.

7. What shirt are you wearing? an orange one from H&M

8. Do you "label" yourself? i don't really fit into one.. i'd like to think i'm trendy though

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing? not wearing any

1o. Bright or Dark Room? depends

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? haha if you only knew..

12. Ever "spilled the beans"? that was such a great game growing up

13. What were you doing at midnight last night? probably coughing. i'm pretty damn sick

14. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say? good news from my big<3

15. Do you ever click on "Pop Ups" or Banners?: i try not to.

16. What's a saying that you say a lot?: like

17. Who told you they loved you last: christy on her birthday....even though she was retardedly drunk, it counts

18. Last furry thing you touched?: christy .....haha just kidding.. probably my blanket

19. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past Three Days? hugs not drugs! nah... 1 + my nyquil

2o. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?: digitall

21. Favorite age you have been so far?: that's tough.. either 16 or when i was like 3

22. Your worst enemy?: food..or vodka

23 What is your current desktop picture?: dave matthews, naturally

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?: hey slut.. cassie<3 dude i love you

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret?  million bucks! i don't have any major major regrets

• i can see my best friends any time of the day i want.. they all live within walking distance and can hang out with me whenever i need them
  
• i always have someone to eat a meal with and am not alone sitting in front of the tv eating a pb&j...and dinner conversations are always amazing
  
•  if i wanna lie out in the sun i get to watch boys playing all different games, listen to great music, and smell pot
  
• there are no rules.. i can come home at 7 am if i wanted to or sit outside and smoke a cigarette and have an amazing conversation with a great friend whenever i feel stressed
• i don't have to work for my money
  
• you don't have to sit in bed alone at night contemplating things...you have someone right next to you to listen and talk it out
  
• if i feel like getting trashed out of my mind or if i really need to make out with a boy, nine times out of ten, i can make it happen (and don't have to worry about the consequences)
• mom's not here, but when she comes, she always brings money and food.

people make me cry.

haha.. i say this as i sit here in club cannavino (the lib) next to the coolesttt roommate ever christy who's making faces at me and telling me i'm hot..no but really. they do. people suck. and no matter what you do, some people just aren't gonna like you. and i understand that. but it still sucks. but i guess that's life.

peace out kids.

All of the sudden even though you have some place where you can put your stuff that idea of home is gone...it just sort of happens one day and it's just gone. And you can never get it back. It's like you get homesick for a place that doesn't exist. /gardenstate

so yeah i've noticed that my entries lately suck. and i mean it too. i'm either messed up or there's no meaning behind them or they're just stupid. not that this entry's gonna be much different, but it's cool.

so things have finally become better...and it's funny because as soon as this happens, i realize that i have to go home in a couple of weeks, and then basically have to start all over. my job(s) for the summer still aren't secured..except for good old stop & shop which at this point is the last place i want to be, and i dunno, things are gonna be different. they just are. and i know that. but that doesn't mean it makes me want to go home any more either. things are great here, so why should i want to go home? i'm in a great sorority (haha never in my life thought i'd say that), i have a really good group of girlfriends, and i dunno, things are just going well. so why would i want to go home to where things are a mess? just doesn't make sense.

it's kinda sad to think that wallingford isn't really my home anymore..a place that i grew up in for almost nineteen years, and when i go back, it's not gonna be the same....ever again. and like i remember growing up when the older kids would come home from college they'd say the same things.. but i never thought that would happen to me. and even throughout almost all of first semester i still had ties with home.. but things happen.. people change, friendships fall apart...shit happens, and now things are different. but it's just sad that i've finally established a solid support system here at school..people that i know like me for who i am and are there for me whenever i need them, and now i have to leave for something like four months. that's shitty.

but it's not like there aren't people at home that i miss, because that's not true either. i do definitely still have friends at home that i miss being around...and i'll always have those few girls that have been with me through everything whom i can't wait to see. but unfortunately, regardless-home just doesn't seem like a place i belong anymore.